I'm so confused about what I should do now. Can someone please help?

So long story as short as I can put it, I met this guy, Jordan (so there isn't any confusion), when I first came to college. after a few days of talking and getting to know him I started to develop feelings for him. We started dating late October and our relationship was great except for the fact that we were secret about it cause we didn't want my mom to know cause she would have blamed him for my grades and I didn't want that to happen. We broke up in late November cause neither one of us like being secretive about our relationship, he didn't like that he had to deny that he was with me and I didn't like that I couldn't actually be with my boyfriend in public. We agreed to get back together but me being stupid I couldn't handle not being with him cause I had fallen hard for this guy. He was the first guy I had with and I was his first too which is probably why I fell so hard for him. I kept pestering him to get back with me but all that happened was that he had decided he didn't want to get back with me after all. I thought I would get over him during the Christmas break but as soon as I saw him when we got back all the emotions came back. I was struggling with the first two months of the new year of being his friend and wanting to be more than just friends. In late February we had a stupid argument and he had told me to leave him alone so I did. That next week he just stopped talking to me and removed me from his friends list on facebook which made me realize that I really screwed up this time. I had sent him a letter before I found out he didn't want to be my friend anymore and I found out from one of my friends that he had read it but didn't let anyone else read it because he told them it was between me and him. Its been a little over a month now since I haven't talked to him and I don't know what to do. I was planning on going to talk to him on April 14 just to at least try and find out why he didn't even tell me that he didn't want to be friends anymore cause that's what really hurt me was the fact that he didn't tell me anything, he just did it. And then one of my friends and her boyfriend were on the verge of breaking up and I was there to comfort her and when she was talking to me I saw my feelings for Jordan in her and it brought everything back and i'm so confused right now. He won't even look at me or stay in the same room as me for more than 5 minutes. I really screwed up with me and I regret it so bad. He has moved on cause I found out recently he's dating his best friend since 8th grade now and I know he's happy with her so I don't ruin it and as long as he's happy then I'm happy for him. She lives in a different city so I don't have to see them both together all the time which I see as a good thing. I don't know what to do right now. Can someone please help me out?