31 have to have a hysterectomy afraid of hormone therapy advice anyone?

i'm 31 years old i have chronic endometriosis, literally two or three times a month i would develop a huge ovarian cyst and have to go to the e.r. because the pain was so bad. i have no health insurance but there is a clinic i go to. they have given me 6 surgeries for endometriosis, it keeps coming back. i could never stick with any birth control or drugs like Lupron especially i got suicidal, literally. i have major depression so those are not good drugs for me. however two weeks ago i had another surgery the plan was to take out my left ovarian tube and my left ovary...but when they got in there they saw that my right ovary was just as diseased and both of them are so inlargeed from scar tissue and blood vessels attatched to them they have to go in again and make an incision, not just doing it the laporascopic way. they are doing a hysterectomy. here's my question, i already have depression and knowing for a fact that i cannot have children has been very hard for me, i want children more than anything. adoption is fine but realistically i dont know if i can ever afford it. but, i am sooo afraid of being more depressed because with both ovaries out i will have no choice but to have to take some kind of hormone replacement therapy treatment. any advice on certain ones that are good? i take prozac and klonipin and that just barely helps my depression now. any help would be appreciated, thanks guys